Author: Vanessa Chua

30th September, is the 6th month mark since i started learning the cello.   Personally, i think I’ve done ok for the first 6 months. Still learning how to hold the cello, the finger placements, how long my end-pin should be, How much fingers i should be using, for both right and left hand, and…

I feel stuck. Fuck this shit.

Last year i tore a shoulder tendon, which was excruciatingly painful. In alot of way, i wasn’t able to lead a normal life, with simple activities. Things like washing my hair, or wearing clothes would cause me tears due to the excruciating pain. After about 8 months of physical inacitivy, whirlwind of emotions and periods…

As silly as i am, i want to believe that the universe reminds me that you are taking care of me. And miraculously, Apple music decide to play your fav song on repeat yesterday and today.   Thank you universe.   Love you papa, always in my heart

When you shine brightly, what you are really doing is inspiring other stars to believe that they can shine too. So Van, never underestimate your strength, in truthfulness, in your conviction, in your confidence. Somewhere, it raises a whole new tribe. Intimidated people will shrink, but 90% more will stand taller because of your strength….

Obviously the world heard me after the last post. I got into another accident, hurting both my wrist and hands. Things have been hard, for me to accept/ This covid thing / this job thing / and this feeling of not able to be self sufficient / not being able to do the things i…

This year, i want to take better care of myself. I dont want to hurt myself anymore, be it physically, emotionally and mentally. Come what may.

Today, is one of those days that I don’t want to fight or struggle with what the world provides me with. All i can say is that, I took some time to open up and to be vulnerable, and most often than not. It is coupled with disappointment. When the heart is ready, he is…