Because I’m like you. All of you. Who thought that my dad won’t die until he is old and happy. That he won’t leave me instantly. That last breakfast was the last with him. And you’ll never know. My pain grows everyday. My loneliness grows with every passing day. Everyday I feel I lose myself…
Happy Father’s Day.
Papa. Happy father’s day. I miss you so much. I’m overwhelmed with the fact you died. I feel lonely. I feel lost. I have no fucking clue on how to deal with this pain or this emotional cloud shit. Everytime I close my eyes. I see you. Every task I keep myself busy with I…
I long to hold that hands again. Miss you papa.
That place and a funeral
1) Drives to and fro that place is mentally exhausting. 2) It is where you learn that medical advancement are only for the rich. 3) It is where you learn who are your real rich and poor friends, financially and in character wise. Unfortunately the rich did badly on the character meter. 4) It is…
7 Days, and Counting.
Math is always difficult. Calculating is difficult. Calculating with pain in your heart is worst. Its been 7 days since you left us. And I still feel you around. I still feel devastated, miss you terribly dad. Today I was doing the dishes and I broke down, because you always do the dishes. I miss see…
The Day I Forgot My Watch
From my previous post, I’m guessing that many of you can roughly know that my dad has been pretty sick. Saturday morning, the fateful day that I forgot to wear my watch. And I truly wished that time stopped. Doctors informed us that there was no positive brain activity, and he was totally reliant on…
Are you there? I know you’re there. But I don’t feel like you’re there. I’m scared. About the many things I’m thinking about that can happen. I am sure you can go through all the rubbish in my head. Can you please help? Can you please make him healthy again. Just please find away. I’m…
Take Me Away.
#14
Those who care about you, can hear you, even when you’re quiet. Keep them close.
Papa love
I don’t want anything else in this world. I want you to be well. Nagging at me. Scolding me. Loving me. Waiting for me. Movies together. Fattening food together. Seeing the world together. Please please please God. Be with him. Watch over him. Heal him. I’ll trade anything. For you to be well again. I…