I’m going through my journals, of things that i pen down. This particular book ( I have many books, where i just utilise the first 10 pages of the book) has some emotions, and exact places where I was and what i did.
In this book, i also had some dreams for myself, and I found this particular page of the attributes that i seek in a partner.
I also found this page where I was telling myself that I need myself more, and any time I start to question my worth. Remember all the things that I have, and to be grateful for them.
I think i was flying from Singapore to India.
5th January, 2018
I thought of you papa, and tears stream down my face.
Oh how, I have missed you.
It’s so pathetic that I still cry.
I miss you so so much, its crazy.
How are you been papa.
I miss your voice, both the angered and loving voice.
So many things I would like to tell you.
About what i feel all these years, about whose life I have changed. Who I have met and have loved, who I really cared about.
What I have been doing with my life. What kind of relationships I have formed, with those around me, and most importantly, with myself.
What I have met in life, all the bad and good people, how many men, have principles and have the capacity to love me, or at all.
My journey with God, and all those things that have made me a little stronger, that makes me a little weaker.