When I have finished making miso soup and forgetting to add seaweed before i finished with this dish.
- When bullying is disguised as a joke. Bullying is bullying. Don’t label it as a joke.
- My estranged relationship with my sister.
This passive aggressive way of approaching life, or any kind of argument. is fucking tiring. I don’t do shit like that. I leave. No Matter what i try with this person in my life, i am always incorrect, even when she ask for my opinions. I’m always trying to be controlling, fine, im controlling. I’m always trying to win an argument, fine im competitive and you hate that. I’m a bad person because 8 years ago i kissed a guy she liked when i was intoxicated, and I’m a sinner since, I’m not entirely sure if she hates me as much as she hates the guy who committed this with me. No amount of apologies is good enough, because I’m compartmentalised as what i am/ who i am. I am a coward, because I dont put myself out there, but pick my battles. Maybe i am.
But this young lady, has managed to eliminate me, entirely out of her life. She doesnt say it, but she does it.
No amount of “sorrys” work, no amount of repentance could bridge any kind of love here, if there is any.
I thought after losing my father, I would loved my family members a bit more fiercely than ever. But no, im a controlling, daughter of a bitch, who is competitive, has no empathy, no sympathy, no love in me.
For 8 years, I have been trying, i think the best way, to forgive myself and move on.
That you don’t have to beg for love.
That’s anger, and discontent, and rage
I;ve longed for relationships that would support each other, cheer each other on, help each other and being able to be happy for another person.