I will be the owner of a small quaint shop selling ceramics
I will be a cellist – actively playing in an orchestra.. for retirement
Possible a large garden full of healthy greens to wake up to, just outside my master bedroom window, and a mini herb garden, and mangosteen tree.
I will have morning swims, and feel refreshed everyday.
I will have quiet mornings, where i sit to have my hard-boil eggs, with freshly made cup of coffee, where i can chew in peace and allow my body to digest with ease.
And I will be taking my kids to school, dropping off and picking them up from school, and we will have simple dinners, might throw in Friday Fast Food night, and cook-free weekends.
I will take time to read to them, and explain complex adult ideas to them, and ravel in all their love and tiny little big hearts.
We will have concert nights, where each of us will be performing and entertaining one another.
We will have a dog, that loves us as much as we would love him.
And I will have a good, responsible husband that would care of my mental, emotional and physical health – and vice versa.
I will bring mummy over, every other month and spend our days together, cooking, laughing, and traveling around the world together, or with my family.
I will be still loving my niece and nephews, and will always be the best aunt they will ever have. I will listen their joys, and their worries, and their anxieties like how i would listen intently to the rain.
Mostly importantly, i will want to feel safe, and at ease with my past, my present and my future.
It has been 6 full month of chaos. I pray that the next 6 months would be easier.