I lost something really important to me last week. And honestly guys.
I have been crazy, crying my eyes out. And the whole emotional roller coaster. happened.
And you know what, I feel awful. Like I have lost my sight. Losing my dad, losing this , this time around – threw me off balance. I’m still struggling as you can see.
Feels like all skeletons and skin again, having to build the foundation, of my vision, my soul, my almost peanut sized knowledge on trust and all fragile things in life. On top of that, act like I am ok with the lost and having to kickass. Owh the pressure.
But let me tell you something I’m proud of. I’m a human being, and I embraced the lost, I feel when I needed to. People see me as a coward because of the emotions that I’m experiencing, The tears that welled up in my eyes. They cleanse my soul and they make me see clearer.
You may have the dick, but Owh. I have the balls – you live your life like a choreographed dance. Bending and smoothing your edges hoping, to not feel pain or hurt. To be glued all the time, like a robot without imperfections.
Are you even living, – embracing life ?
You poor soul.