Death; wow. So fucking hard to bear, when the few people you cannot live without die. You will never get over these losses, and are not supposed to. All I can say it that, it doesn’t go away. Your pain type might change from a distinct sharp pain, to a dull and mellow pain. We Christians like to think death is a major change of address, but in any case, the person will live fully again in your heart, at some point, and make you smile at the MOST inappropriate times, and make you feel terribly empty at certain intervals as well. But their absence will also be a lifelong nightmare of homesickness for you, almost like a dream that you wished you would wake up from. All truth is a paradox. Grief, friends, time and tears will heal you. Tears will bathe and baptize and hydrate you and the ground on which you walk.