No one wants to talk about it.
The more you talk about it, the more people think you’re strong. But i’m really not, and if you’re not careful people take advantage of it. Shame, the fear of disconnection, the action or things we say or do, that makes you feel unworthy of (fill in the blank) – being here, doing this, or of being accepted.
I constantly feel this negative emotion, in my workplace, by the people around me, mostly by the people who don’t let me be, and don’t understand me. Humans are funny is some way. Even i’m funny. I think that i know myself, but i’m all complicated, and simple at the same time.
I am worthy, of love and belonging. Whole-heartedly, i do think so. I will tell you i am imperfect, and I;m compassionate with myself, with others. And i hope i have the courage to keep on having a full heart to keep on going, to keep loving people and accepting people for who they are, and in return I will keep breathing in the mean time.
I struggle so much with being vulnerable because it comes with so much pain, shame, fear, struggle for worthiness and dealing with such exposure of yourself.. I hope in return, i get to experience and i know i will…. , joy, creativity, of belonging, and love. I’m just going to surrender to this shit, not going to fight with it.
Hah! Simple but tough.