Month: February 2018

Hi papa love; happy birthday. I miss you dearly. Especially your hugs and all your ‘I love yous’ you used to say to me. I could always feel them being the transferred across the phone. Happy sigh, thank you for being the best daddy in the world while you were here. I am so blessed…

I know nothing about what I want, the things and the pictures of what I desire in my head is sometimes, weaved through what the society tells me what i should have, or through the culture that I was brought up in, also what I have self-taught. If you ask me what I want to…

Hey God; i have been anxious and jumpy, trying to control many things I can not control in life. Being ridiculous and absurd. i want the best for him, ( although I want to be selfish, I want the best for him and I want him to be happy). I hate that I have such…

Today, merely after writing the previous post. Of late, I spoke a lot of myself. I wrote down a lot of things. Today, I cleaned the whole fucking white board and stared hard at it. And I asked myself, what am I here for ? What is the one thing that I feel most alive…

This cloud of  ambivalence, that is over taking me. Is driving me insane. I recently changed my job, having understood the deep long pain (physical, and the chasing of success), i have decided that I wanted to slow down ( take things slowly ). Off I went to experience India, came back and started the…