My blood pressure was hitting the roof. The doctor said, think of something else. Think of something nice.

So closed my eyes, I thought of blooming flowers. I thought of magical Japan. I thought of my niece. I thought of smiley people. I also thought of my crush. Then I thought of kindness. I thought of thoughtfulness, I thought of love. I thought of food. I thought of the stars, I thought of the sea.

But nothing paced my heart.

And I thought harder.

It was just us, me and him. Sitting on bench. We were looking at a lake. Vast – laid before me. Beautiful. Quiet. Calm. The water was mirroring its surrounding – almost looks like Lake Wanaka.

He didn’t look at me, he was just looking at the lake, he had a face full of approval. Smiling in a way, but subtly. He didn’t speak a word.

And I looked at him, the whole time, with eager eyes – wanting more. I was just looking at him. Hoping he would look at me too, or say something to me. To say he loves me. But my mind and heart was already so glad because, his presence already made so much difference to my entire soul.